Day One... (Favorite)

This is one of those questions that people ask you all the time and is the hardest one to answer. What is your favorite movie? I have a million favorite movies but I have decided that the only way to properly answer this question is by choosing the movie I watch the most and can watch over and over and over again without getting tired of it. That movie is 'That Old Feeling.' It's a romantic comedy which is so not my kind of movie but I think it's great. I saw it for the first time years ago and instantly fell in love with it. Bette Midler stars in it which of course makes it instantly wonderful. It's hilarious, has a happy ending, and is an all around feel good movie.

...If you don't control your temper, your temper will control you...

Reflection...

So it's been a while since I've actually posted something other than those "picture challenge" things. And there's a reason for that. I don't like feeling vulnerable. I hate it. I don't like having my guard down, letting people in and seeing the real me, and giving people the opportunity to take advantage of me. So with that said, things have been interesting lately. I feel as though nothing is going right. Of course there's the money troubles which still hasn't gone away, and then there's the issue of my new living situation, and worst of all is my thoughts that keep me trapped inside my own head day in and day out. I'm trying to take a page out of Camilla's book, (click on her name and it will take you to her blog in case you've never read it. In which you should.), and have decided to try and think positively. She makes a very valid point. If you think in the negative then you will feel in the negative and everything around you will be negative. It's funny how your thoughts and emotions control the outcome of your life.  It's been difficult lately to not think that I'm regressing instead of progressing. I've been told by multiple people that I'm definitely moving forward, but it's hard for me to see it that way. I guess it's just been a really morbid and depressing week, what with going to different cemeteries and visiting most of my dead relatives (7 of them to be exact). That will take a toll on your mind and soul. Plus driving the 10hr round trip to go to one of the cemeteries then coming home to once again become stuck inside of my own head. I'm making it my mission to not only think positively, but act positively. We'll see how this goes. Maybe I need to start blogging on a regular basis again instead of only doing those picture challenges. Which, by the way, I totally enjoy and a new one is about to start up tonight or tomorrow. I hope everyone has a great week and a very Happy Easter!

Eddie, Uncle Larry, Aunt Buddy...

God is cruel...

...sometimes he makes us live.

Day Thirty... (Time of Year)

This time of year is usually when I'm making my musical transition from country to more rock/heavy metal. This year I found a new song, well new to me, that works perfectly for this transition. "That was Yesterday" by Wynonna Judd. This song is so amazing it gives me goosebumps everytime I hear it. And the story she tells before singing the song makes it that much better.


That was yesterday

"'Cause I was your woman...

...but you threw me away..."

Wynonna Judd

Day Twenty-Nine... (Childhood)

Hands down "Beat it" by Michael Jackson is the song that reminds me most of my childhood. Jason and I would play this song and "dance" to it by putting on knee length socks, running full speed through the kitchen, jump down the stairs, and slide on the family room carpet landing in a pile of pillows. These are memories that I will always treasure and never forget.

Beat it

Day Twenty-Eight... (Guilty)

The song that makes me feel guilty is "Smack my Bitch up" by Prodigy. Okay, so that doesn't exactly sound as though it's a song that would make someone feel guilty especially considering the song is techno and in no way has any downer effects to it. My ex-boyfriend/really good friend died a few years ago. He took his life when he hanged himself in the garage at his parents house. The last time I saw him was the Halloween prior to this, when we drove around blasting Prodigy, "scaring" the little kids. We ended up getting into a fight about something trivial and didn't speak. Ever again. A few months later I went by his parents' house to say Happy Birthday and try and salvage our friendship. His mom answered the door and told me about what had happened. I couldn't believe it. To this day it's still hard to comprehend, but every Halloween, I go around blasting "Smack my Bitch up" by Prodigy not only in memory of Charles, but also to remind myself that time is fleeting and you never know what tomorrow may bring.

Smack my bitch up

Day Twenty-Six... (Instrument)

There's in only one song I know how to play and that's London Bridges on the piano. I don't even think I play it in the proper key, but it's the only thing I can even remotely play.

Day Twenty-Five... (Laugh)

The song that makes me laugh the most is "Brown Chicken Brown Cow" by Trace Adkins. A lot of people might not get the hole brown chicken brown cow meaning, but if you do, this song is fucking hilarious and the music video makes it that much better!

Brown Chicken Brown Cow

"Shucking those dirty work clothes off...

...singing brown chicken brown cow..."

Trace Adkins

Day Twenty-Four... (Funeral)

I've had this planned out for a while. You may think it's morbid, but in my family when someone dies we like to put together a compilation of songs to remember that person. I want "The Chain" by Fleetwood Mac to be playing at my funeral. I have specific instructions for how it needs to be played.  I want everyone attending to show up blasting that song out of the loudest speakers you can get for a car with the bass so loud you think there's an earthquake happening.

The Chain

"And if you don't love me now...

...you will never love me again."

Day Twenty-Three... (Wedding)

At my wedding, (if I ever have one), I want "When I said I do" by Clint Black and Lisa Hartman Black to be playing. But only from speakers connected to a CD player of some kind. I don't want any band or any live music. My wedding will be low key with friends and family, and a BBQ and beer. Plain, simple, and fun. But this is a beautiful song and will be the one and only corny moment allowed at my wedding.

When I said I do

"When  I said I do I meant that I will...

til the end of all time be faithful and true..."

Day Twenty-Two... (Sad)

The first time I heard this song was on an episode of One Tree Hill. The episode was of Haleys moms funeral service. I have never cried so hard in my life because of a television show. I actually ran into my parents house and straight to my moms bedroom bawling my eyes out telling her how much I love her. So my pick for the saddest song is "I shall believe" by Sheryl Crow.

I shall believe

But the song I listen to when I'm sad is "Quicksand" by Bethany Joy Galeotti, who just so happens to play the aforementioned Haley on One Tree Hill.

Quicksand

Day Twenty-One... (Happy)

The song that makes me happy is "Kiss" by Prince. It cracks me up when my mom is in the car because she gets so into the song it's hilarious. Plus Julia Roberts sings a little of it in Pretty Woman which is an awesome movie.


Kiss

Day Twenty... (Angry)

The song I listen to the most when I'm angry is "Someday" by Flipsyde. It's not really an angry song but it seems to calm me down. However if I'm pissed I usually listen to either "Not Listening" by Papa Roach or "Get Psycho" by Disturbed. If you ever hear me listening to those songs it's best to stay away from me because there is no calming me down (but I am still working on it). But yay for Flipsyde! Got love the band from the Bay Area...

Someday

"Someday we gonna break free from these chains...

...and keep on flyin'"

Flipsyde

Day Nineteen... (Favorite Album)

My favorite album of all time is Brooks and Dunn number 1's and then some. It's got every Brooks and Dunn song one could ask for, plus a few new songs that were never before released. It's an amazing CD and I'm glad to have it in my B&D collection.

Honky Tonk Stomp

"Cowboy camped on a barstool...

...shootin' double whisky with a longneck back..."

Brooks and Dunn

Day Eighteen... (Wish for Radio)

I don't listen to the radio so I have no idea what's being played over the air and what isn't. So for this day I'd have to say "Deify" by Disturbed should be played more often on the radio.

Deify

"Oh my devotion betrayed...

...I am no longer afraid..."

Disturbed

Day Seventeen... (Radio)

I don't really listen to the radio so I'm basing this song on the days of when I used to listen to the radio... I choose "I Pray for you" by Jaron and the Long-Road to Love.


I pray for you

"I pray a flower pot falls from a window sill...

...and knocks you in the head like I'd like to..."

Jaron

Day Sixteen... (Love - Hate)

Wannabe

Today is supposed to be a song that I used to love but now hate. For this day I chose "Wannabe" by The Spice Girls. Hahaha. I used to listen to that song on repeat constantly. I think some of us actually learned and memorized the dance moves to the entire song. I was in 5th grade during the boy band, girl band, pop singer era. Looking back on those day scares the hell out of me. Thank God I grew up and learned what good music really is.


"Slam your body down...

...and zigazig ah..."

Spice Girls

Day Fifteen... (Description)

There are two songs that describe my life. The first song is "Blow Away" by Staind and the second is "What do you think about that" by Montgomery Gentry.


Blow Away

"I wish that I could disappear...
...unzip my skin and leave it here..."

Staind


What do you think about that

"I don't give a damn what other people think...
...what do you think about that..."

Montgomery Gentry

Day Fourteen... (Unexpected Love)

This one is a toss up between "23" by Jimmy Eat World and "Be Yourself" by Audioslave. Not many people would expect me to like these songs because I consdier both of these bands to be under the "whiny" category of music. I was play "23" in my car the other day when I was working, and my boss' daughter was shocked that I actually liked that song. My musical dislikes are very well known. It's what I like that people are surprised by.

Be yourself



23

Day Thirteen... (Guilty Pleasure)

My guilty pleasure is "Here I go again" by Whitesnake. Bands from the 80's are totally awesome and I think more people should listen to some of the music from that decade. The music is ridiculous and all around amazing. The songs are funny and up beat. Even the ballads are fun to listen to. And you can't forget about the hair, the bright colors, and the tight leather pants. Thank you Whitesnake, for fulfilling my guilty pleasure music needs. And to you, Tawny Kitaen, for the epic car dancing that made this song a classic...


Here I go again

"I don't know where I'm goin'...

...but I sure know where I've been."

-Whitesnake

Never iron a four-leaf clover... you don't want to press your luck... (March)

Shows watched in March 2011

• E.R.
• Law and Order SVU
• Boy Meets World

 Movies watched in March 2011

• No Escape
• Bullworth
• Ransom
• White Men Can't Jump
• Simply Irresistible
• Working Girl
• Patriot Games
• Cop Out
• Easy A

Playlist of March 2011

• Lonely and Gone - Montgomery Gentry
• What was I thinkin' - Dierks Bentley
• Trying to Survive - by Montgomery Gentry
• Clouds - Montgomery Gentry
• Country Boy - Aaron Lewis
• Deify - Disturbed
• Overburdened - Disturbed
• Bad for Good - Montgomery Gentry

Birthdays of March 2011

• Ashley - 21 March 5
• Kristen - 21 March 9
• Uncle Woody March 10
• Me - 24 March 13
• Papa March 15

Accomplishments of March 2011

• 97% on my Police Report Writing midterm
• Made a plan to eat healthy (or at least try to)
• Finally got my hair cut... to most this might seem like a minor thing, but for me it was an accomplishment since I hadn't had it cut in over a year and some of the money came out of my own pocket
• Didn't lose my temper a single time this month
• Gained more clarity about certain situations
• Have learned to live with what I got not what I want
• Turning 24

Grievances of March 2011

• Death of Grandma (March 3rd)
• The flushing of my cell phone
• No family reconciliation
• Found out I'm possibly diabetic (so pre-diabetic)
• Still haven't finished moving. Holy Hell.

Books

The Green Mile (All six volumes) - Stephen King
One for the money - Janet Evanovich
Running Man - Stephen King
Roadwork - Stephen King
Two for the dough - Janet Evanovich

Photo Memories of March 2011

R.I.P. Grandma

Amazing birthday card Aunt Dawn made for me...

The one surviving item of my poor flushed phone...

Margaritaville blender we used for my birthday to make pina coladas...

I'm no longer blonde... and it's really weird...

My birthday soda from my dad...

"Spring is natures way of saying...

...Let's party!"

Robin Williams

Day Twelve... (Hated Band)

I write sins not tragedies

I don't care what anyone says, but I HATE Panic at the Disco. I don't know why, I just do. For once I'm not really into that genre of music plus they sound whiny all the time and it drives me up the wall. I guess it doesn't matter which song I pick because I can't stand any of them, but I really really really want to blow my brains out when I hear "I write sins not tragedies".

In my opinion they write tragedies...

...and the only sin is listening to them.

(no offense to those who like this band. to each his/her own. I just can't stand them as I'm sure others hate the music I listen to.)

Day Eleven... (Song from Favorite Band)

My favorite band was Brooks and Dunn (surprise, surprise, I know), but since they have retired my new favorite band is Montgomery Gentry. The song I chose to represent my new boys is "All Night Long" by Montgomery Gentry. It's a fun, fast paced, loud, and very entertaining song. Plus, Charlie Daniels is featured in the song playing his bad ass fiddle, and in my opinion shit don't get much better than that.

All Night Long

"How long you think this party's gonna last...

...all night long."

Montgomery Gentry